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somewhere on the outside.

It's hard to explain
Inherently it's just always been strange
Neither here nor there, always somewhat out of place everywhere
Ambiguous
Without a sense of belonging to touch
Somewhere halfway
Feeling there's no one completely the same

Standing alone
Eager to just believe it's good enough to be what you really are
But in your heart uncertainty forever lies
And you'll always be somewhere on the outside

Early on, you face the realization you don't have a space
Where you fit in and recognize you were born to exist

Standing alone
Eager to just believe it's good enough to be what you really are
But in your heart uncertainty forever lies
And you'll always be somewhere on the outside

And it's hard
And it's hard
And it's hard

Irreversibly
Falling in between
And it's hard to be understood as you are

And God knows
That you're standing on your own
Blind and unguided
Into a world divided
You're thrown
Where you're never quite the same
Although you try to tell yourself  you really are
But in your heart uncertainty forever lies
And you'll always be somewhere on the outside

You'll always be somewhere on the outside




Somehow, me, at some moments, frequently confused about what i feel.
I guess it just a random sense, and i believe it's not a big deal.
Until, I heard this song.
And read the lyric.

Then i knew.
Then i cried.
Cause i'm broken for something trivial but real.
And it matter.



I thought i knew the ground that my feet on.
I thought i knew my circle.
I thought i knew my people.


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